Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Snowed In

Between 48 hours of work a week at the hospital, prepping for youth group (teaching, activities, Sunday School...), leading worship biweekly, running a photography business, fighting sleep deprivation (Thanks Titus ;), and spending time with other family/friends, Team Worth has realized we take very little time to just enjoy our small family.  Today, however, God intervened.  The snow fell, and halted our busy life as we know it; so we stayed in, got creative, and made a night of it!

Here are a few pictures to give you a window into our impromptu family night:



Mommy and Eden made a brand new dessert tailored to Katie's "No Chocolate" Month


Daddy and Eden played Candyland for the first time, Eden won twice


Titus was a cheerful onlooker!  He rolled over for the first time today!
Also today he is 4 months old.

And what family night is complete without a fort?!?!




This is simply one of those days that God blessed us with.  It wasn't planned or prepared, but we had fun, we ate delicious dessert, and we spent time together!  Praise God!

Thursday, January 2, 2014

Poured Out

I wrote this a few months ago, but thought it was still worth posting...Be encouraged!

I am convinced that one of the hardest jobs on earth is being a parent to a Newborn. No, this is not my first time around the block as a parent. I have walked this familiar road only 2 years ago with Eden. But just 2 years later it's hard to remember all the specifics of those early weeks with a newborn. There is no way to describe the struggles that you can face on top of sleep deprivation. You may try to explain it to someone who has never been a parent, but it's almost like trying to explain a contraction to someone who has never been in labor. It just seems like there is no way to accurately express all that you are feeling and facing in those early weeks. It's amazing how much a Newborn teaches you about being selfless. You pour yourself  out, day in and day out to this little person who can absolutely do nothing for themselves. Their life depends on you! What a sobering thought. At 3 am when they need to eat or be changed you must act. You must respond. What beautiful love you pour out on them. When you're at the end of your rope, you press on for their sake. You wake up just 1 more time in the middle of the night. You give up time for yourself to look after them. When you're at a restaurant and your child wakes up and needs to nurse, you nurse. The baby comes first. No matter how inconvenient it may seem to your schedule. You love them so much, and you sacrifice everything for them.
What a wonderful picture of what Christ has done for us. When we were dead in our sins, and could do absolutely NOTHING for ourselves, HE saved us.
I am reminded that with a Newborn you start at the bottom. You start in the trenches, and hope and pray that with each passing day it gets just a little easier. Our sin causes us to be in the trenches. Far from God. Far from the one who desires a perfect relationship with us. So just as with a Newborn, we figure them out and grow to love them more and more, God desires that with us. He gave us EVERYTHING when we had NOTHING. We need His love and care day in and day out. Most importantly we need the salvation He gives us!

I will tell you there is something beautiful about having a Newborn. In those sleep deprived moments it's important to breathe, and just take a moment to take in that newborn smell. To gaze upon that beauty laying in your arms. To stare in wonder at his or her ten fingers and toes. This little person leaves you speechless and hopefully with a heart full of thankfulness to God.

But if you find yourself only focusing on the hardships, remember it does get easier. I blinked, and my 1st child is 2 years old now. Yes we had long days and nights with her too, but we made it.
God is with you, and I know that He is with me. He is with me at 3 am when I've hit my breaking point. He is with me when I am short with my daughter. He is with me ALWAYS!

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

5 for '14

As the sun dawns on a new year, it is a sobering time in the Worth household.  We again must look up our previous year's goals, and face up the the fact that we fell on our faces in meeting them.  Last year's 5 were to read 4 books (we started at least 4), Exercise 120 minutes a week (there were months we may not have exercised 120 minutes), To have 12 paid photo shoots (We did get close, something like 10), Deny ourselves one thing each month (probably didn't even follow through with this in January), Do a new family excursion each month (although we had many excursions, it is unlikely we had one a month).

But in the words of Winston Churchill:

"Success is the ability to go from one failure to another with no loss of enthusiasm"

So with great enthusiasm we will make 5 for '14:

  • Deny ourselves one thing each month
    • If insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting different results, then call us insane.  Katie and I will pick a new thing to give up each month for the entirety of the month. (I'm giving up secular music for January, and Katie is giving up chocolate)
  • Blog twice a month
    • Two years ago we did this as a goal.  Not only have we missed blogging, but we also believe doing this will help us stay on pace with our other goals since we would like to do a goals update on the first of each month.
  • Lose 15 and 10 Lbs
    • Katie will aim to lose, and keep off, 10 Lbs.  I will aim to lose 15 and keep it off.  We will do this by healthier eating and intentional exercise at least twice a week.  We hope to lose the weight by the fall, and then for the rest of the year prove we can stay at those given weights.
  • Timely
    • We acknowledge that we are "that family", and so we now will set a goal to be on time to all but one thing each week.  It may sound strange to set a goal to be late once a week, but believe me when I say that this would be a vast improvement!
  • Devotion
    • We desire a deeper knowledge of the Word.  Katie and I must spend at least 120 minutes of time devoted to knowing God's Word better each week.
 We are excited and hopeful about our goals for 2014! We appreciate your prayers and encouragement as we strive to become a more focused, healthier, timely, and devoted family.
  Happy New Year to you all!

TEAM WORTH

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

The Arrival of Titus William

Team Worth has been blessed with our newest member! Titus William Worth arrived Sunday September 22nd at 8:41pm. Weighing in at 7lbs 14ounces 20 inches long. Titus came just 2 days passed his due date. I had been waiting, waiting, and WAITING for his arrival for several weeks. I was so sure I would deliver early, especially since my first child came right on time. A bit of advice, never set yourself up like that because you may only create disappointment. I not only made it to my due date, I went beyond it. However, God's timing is perfect and who are we to question that.

For those of you who didn't know, we were being surprised with the gender. I must say I was pretty sure it was going to be a girl. I even packed some extra girlie onesies and some hair bows. So when Mark joyfully told me we had a boy I was VERY surprised. I don't think I was ever so happy to be proven wrong. We were fine with a girl, or a boy of course! Having a child is a win-win.  However, if you know our story over the last year you would know that we lost Noah Matthew at 19 weeks gestation, last October. That was an extremely challenging time in our lives, and by far the hardest thing we have had to face since being married. God gave us the grace and strength and we have been able to move on.  I think losing Noah created a "boy" shaped hole in our hearts though. It is so neat to see that even when we do not actively voice our desires to the Lord, he hears and answers them.

Thursday September 19th God gave us a practice run of sorts.The baby's heart rate deceled during a routine NST (Non-stress test). My OB did not like that so she sent me to the hospital right away, and said it was time for the baby to be born. However, throughout our time there and our discussion with the nurse and doctor it was determined that there was no rush for the little one to make their appearance. The baby looked beautiful, all the tests came back just fine. So after a long day in the hospital we went home! So again we played the waiting game...Then Sunday September 22nd came along, and that is where the real story begins.
This day started out like any other normal Sunday. We went to church as a family and then came home for a relaxing and quiet afternoon. That afternoon Eden and Mark took naps while my mom and I headed out to the craft store. While we were out I could tell that my legs and lower back were causing a lot of discomfort. I even told my mom "This baby can't stay in here for much longer because my legs and back are killing me"......As we were wrapping up our shopping trip I had a contraction This was around 3:30pm. I of course kept it to myself. Then about 20 minutes later, a contraction. I even talked through a painful contraction on the way home, and didn't mention a thing. I wanted to be sure before everyone got all excited. So when we got home I went upstairs to take a "nap", or so my mom thought. I knew I needed to keep watching the clock and I truthfully wanted to know if this was the real deal. I went upstairs, laid down, popped open a WORD document and began writing down the start time of each contraction. They started out far enough apart that I began to fall asleep between them. After a few 20 minute apart contractions I realized they were coming quicker. 9 minutes apart, 7 minutes, 5 minutes... Between 5 and 5:30pm I had 7 contractions. I decided that it was time to wake up Mark. He was sleeping in preparation for working that evening, but that of course would not happen. We talked for a while in the privacy of our room about what our game plan should be. We came downstairs around 6pm to inform Grandma of what was going on. Then we took our time pulling things together. The pain began increasing, and as I gathered things together I would take breaks to breathe and work through the contractions. We knew we didn't want to wait super long to go in, especially if the baby's heart was deceling at all during contractions. Thankfully the hospital is only about 3 blocks away, so we knew we could get there relatively quickly. We arrived at the hospital around 7:15 or 7:30pm. On our way to the hospital I mentioned to Mark that things seemed to be moving along rather quickly and that I thought we might have this baby before midnight. Mark of course thought that I should not set myself up to be dissapointed. In his mind he was calculating the length of my labor with Eden, and was pretty sure the baby wouldn't arrive till the early morning hours.

We arrived at the hospital around 7:30pm. Considering that we almost didn't make it to the hospital in time with Eden, we felt prepared and ahead of the game this time. Yes contractions were coming at a relatively quick pace, but I was able to sign necessary paperwork and calmly walk into triage.
Once we were in triage the nurse wanted to check my progress, she was a bit surprised I think when she realized I was 6cm. I was glad to be so far along already! I had just been telling myself that I needed to be OK if I hadn't made a lot of progress yet. After all, that was what it was like with Eden. With her birth I was only 1 or 2 cm when I first arrived at the hospital, and they sent me home! But 6cm, I could handle that! Things happened very quickly after that. People were coming in and out of my room in triage. I met the doctor (laborist) who was working that evening and who would be delivering our child. He began talking and I rudely interrupted with a "WAIT, WAIT, WAIT!!" as I was being thrown into another painful contraction. I needed to focus on what I was doing and not talk to the doctor at that moment :). When I'm in labor I can be a bit rude haha.

After briefly talking with the doctor and going over a few things with the nurses, I walked from triage into the delivery room. I met my new nurse, and then the nurse who would be taking care of the baby after birth. They again checked my progress soon after entering the delivery room. 8cm. WOW! Things were moving and I had little time to process everything going on around me. In the throws of contractions I would scream and want to give up, once I settled down enough I would become extra emotional and apologize to all those in the delivery room for being a wimp. Haha I was a mess.  I got to a point where I  told them I wanted to push. It seemed devastating at first when they told me I needed to wait just a little longer.  I remembered pushing came naturally, and seemed to be a good way to react to the pain when I was in labor with Eden. I was given the "OK" to push just a few minutes later. However, getting to "pushing" this time was entirely different. There was more pressure than I had ever felt before, it took all I had to just relax and listen to the doctors. I wanted the baby to just come instantly. Pushing was much harder this time, most likely due to the fact that this champ was a whole pound and a half bigger than Eden. Even once his head was delivered, there was almost no relief, for along came his shoulders. It took great effort and a God given sense of calmness to finish bringing my baby into the world safely! What relief when it was FINALLY over. We welcomed Titus with so much JOY. I'm pretty sure my first response to Mark's "IT'S A BOY" was "REALLY?" or "ARE YOU SURE?" But than an immediate connection followed as they placed him in my arms. I just started saying "I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!" Mamas everywhere understand this amazing moment! You have worked so hard (it's called labor for a reason ;), and now your eyes catch a glimpse of the little person you've been praying for and dreaming about for over 9 months. Your mother heart is left overflowing!


So for those of you paying attention to the clock, my labor was just over 5 HOURS long! I was only in the hospital for a little over an hour before Titus entered the world. I didn't know that labor could go so quickly! Everything went beautifully! As always the prize was worth every agonizing and painful contraction. We are so very thankful for our little man. God has richly blessed us. There were times in this last year that we faced fear and doubt, wondering if we might never be able to have a baby boy. As we spent time talking and recovering in the hospital it wasn't until the day after he was born that it hit me. All those doubts, fears, and worries were washed away because before my eyes was a beautiful baby BOY. A reminder to me that God is so much bigger than anything I will ever face! He has gone before me, and graciously planned out my future, and the future of my family. 

      So here are some pictures of the little guy!








And here is our family!

Thanks to all who have supported and prayed for us on this journey! We welcome it all the more as we face new challenges as a family of 4! :) 

Sunday, June 30, 2013

A word in pictures: Outside

I am very behind this month...But here it goes! The weather in west Michigan finally feels like Summer (at least some days). We have had plenty of opportunities to be outside. Woohoo!  We have been to the beach, the pool, the splash park, many playgrounds and more!...Unfortunately I haven't gotten pictures of Eden at the beach or pool recently. Rest assured...she loves them both!...Her own little pool though, she could really care less about (despite the picture below). She is an adventurer! The waves at the lake delight her, and floating around in Nana and Papa's pool is pretty exciting too. Summers do look different when you are following around a toddler. Children are a constant reminder to slow down and enjoy the little things! :)...So enjoy my month of June...Oh, and did I mention we celebrated 4 family birthdays this month...plus our Anniversary! It's been a full month folks! :)

Eden and her pool that she doesn't really like to be honest :)...Hopefully that will change as the Summer goes on.

Eden loving her first wagon ride!

The splash park she didn't want to go near...This was taken about 15 minutes after arrival :). As long as daddy was with her, she was pretty happy!

Ah! I just love them...My goodness! Super blessed :).




We really enjoyed our anniversary getaway to Ludington. The state park was beautiful! 
We did indeed climb Big Sable Lighthouse! It's 100 feet off the ground. Let's just say we both had to deal with our fear of heights :). 100 feet doesn't seem so bad...but man that small railing is all that's up there...I was like a fly stuck to the wall.

RELAY FOR LIFE...We had a great experience. Our team raised over $6,000! Way to go McCann Cancer Cancel Clan!
Best walking partner!
After the relay, the young ones enjoyed time playin' with the water table, slip and slide, and of course these fun cars :).

Head on over to Robyn's blog and see how she captured her month of June, outdoors!

Friday, May 31, 2013

A Word in Pictures: NEW

The theme for this month's blog circle is "NEW". At first I thought I might not have enough good pictures. But looking back, this was a pretty fun month. Filled with great memories! We have had many new OUTDOOR adventures with our little explorer. So thankful the warmer weather finally decided to show up! I must say it is such a joy seeing the world through Eden's eyes. She absolutely adores being in the great outdoors! So enjoy my take on "NEW"!

Eden loves going down slides...This new warm weather allows for many "sliding" opportunities. 

The beach is quickly becoming her new favorite place :)

Speaking of "New".This month we enjoyed seeing our good friend Greg Howard start a new journey with his Bride Jodi!


She likes to walk...But she loves to run! So thankful for the beautiful weather these days!

Our gorgeous girl playing with stones :).



She loves to touch the water with Daddy. They will be quite the pair this Summer!

The carnival came to town Memorial Day weekend! Eden's 1st time. She loved it!

First ride on the carousel!

This month we had many "new" experiences with our sweet Eden. Looking forward to a Summer filled with water, sand, and more memories!

Friday, April 12, 2013

The Little Girl Before Me...

18 months. 18 months of diaper changes, laughter, tears, hugs, smiles, words, milestones...and so much more! Our sweet Eden Grace is a year and a 1/2 today! Really? How did that happen. I so distinctly remember the day she entered our world and captivated our hearts. We would never be the same.

 Our family of 3 (almost 4) is such a blessing! I am so thankful to our great God for giving us such a precious gift in Eden. We have so enjoyed watching the world through her eyes. Her sense of wonder is incredible. The joy that dances across her face when she runs is non to be compared.  Now we will admit that parenting is not easy, and it's not always enjoyable. But we would also say that our hearts could not LOVE this little girl more! We are blessed beyond measure to have the privilege of raising her.We look at this task, and sometimes it can seem overwhelming. It is easy to wonder if we are doing it "right". The truth is we are imperfect parents in an imperfect world, loving and nurturing our daughter, and hoping that one day she will come to know the one who is PERFECT. Who is her Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, and Prince of Peace. As Christian parents, it is our mission to raise Eden to love and serve her Creator in whatever way she feels called to.

So although, we've only been on this parenting journey for 18 months, we have learned a lot. The most important of all, is that we are not ALONE. Not only has God given us other parents to walk this road with, but He has given us HIMSELF. God did not hand us an instructional  manual  when Eden was born and say "Good luck". No, He is with us always. In the ups and downs. During the temper tantrums and strong willed moments. During the cute cuddly times and melt your heart moments. He is there to lead and direct us and grant us wisdom and patience as we raise our little girl.

Eden means "delight", and what a perfect way to describe what she has brought to our lives! Our world is more colorful, our home more full, and our hearts have been left overflowing with thankfulness to the Lord! All because of this...one...little...girl. Eden Grace :).

Allow us to share with you some things that we simply don't want to forget about our Eden at this age.


Dear Eden...

At 18 months you already have quite the personality :). You are sweet but stubborn. You are independent. You have begun to reason things out, which we find utterly adorable.  Your  two favorite things to cuddle with are your blanket and Mommy. You feed yourself, and will almost NEVER accept help while eating. Your favorite show is Veggietales, which you affectionately call "Tales". You already say so many things...hi, bye, Daddy, Mommy, no, ut-oh, oh-no, ei-ei-o, nice, dog, cat, Papa, Casey, rice, wall, bath, car, slide, ball, bubbles and water :). You absolutely love to be outside and take walks. You love animals, especially dogs. You enjoy books, and have to point out every single dog or cat that is in them.  You don't quite understand sharing, but you'll catch on soon enough. Your favorite food is yogurt, with rice as a close 2nd. You would almost always rather follow Mommy and Daddy around than play with your toys. You are simply YOU Eden, and we love seeing the little girl you are becoming!

Love always,
Mommy and Daddy


Oh, and we celebrated Eden's 1/2 birthday by taking her for her first ride on the train, at the mall. She definitely enjoyed it! We then went to Pizza Ranch with the rest of the family to celebrate Nana's actual birthday! What a fun evening!